It's been awhile.
Ayahanda yang disayangi pergi meninggalkan kami, pulang ke Rahmatullah pada 28 Ogos 2014, 5:30 pagi. It happened so sudden, it left us numb with shock and grief. I have been trying to jot down my thoughts here but each time I overcame with emotions.
Routines fall back into their places soon after. After all, life has to go on. Though things will never be the same again.
I hold dearly the memories with my father. All the sacrifices he made in raising us all, those can never be repaid. I can no longer hug him. The chair he used to sit while smoking every evening seems so empty now. Too empty. No more order for my blueberry cheesecake or walnut bread. Those used to be his favorite among the mere things that I can cook. In fact, in the early day after he's gone, I seemed to lost the mere skills in baking that my husband asked me to take a rest awhile and let my feelings and emotions settle down.
Yesterday, I baked a blueberry cheesecake for Iman (his birthday is today). Likewise his Atok, that cake is also Iman's favorite. I remember when Iman was first diagnosed with ADHD + autistic traits, my father supported us emotionally. During the early days Iman finally started talking, my father called us almost everyday, to talk to Iman. Dah lama Atok tunggu Iman bercakap.
Banyak lagi kenangan. Terlalu banyak, tak tertulis.
It's been approximately two months.
Always in my thoughts and prayers. Routines fall back into their places soon after. After all, life has to go on. Though things will never be the same again.
I hold dearly the memories with my father. All the sacrifices he made in raising us all, those can never be repaid. I can no longer hug him. The chair he used to sit while smoking every evening seems so empty now. Too empty. No more order for my blueberry cheesecake or walnut bread. Those used to be his favorite among the mere things that I can cook. In fact, in the early day after he's gone, I seemed to lost the mere skills in baking that my husband asked me to take a rest awhile and let my feelings and emotions settle down.
Yesterday, I baked a blueberry cheesecake for Iman (his birthday is today). Likewise his Atok, that cake is also Iman's favorite. I remember when Iman was first diagnosed with ADHD + autistic traits, my father supported us emotionally. During the early days Iman finally started talking, my father called us almost everyday, to talk to Iman. Dah lama Atok tunggu Iman bercakap.
Banyak lagi kenangan. Terlalu banyak, tak tertulis.
It's been approximately two months.
Ya Allah,
Kasihanilah bapaku sebagaimana dia mengasihaniku sejak kecil
Tempatkan lah bapaku bersama orang yang beriman
Innalillah ....
ReplyDeleteSemoga roh ayah ayah kita ditempatkan dikalangan roh roh yang akan beroleh syurga nanti...
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ReplyDeleteInsyaAllah, Sampai sekarang masih terbayang suara, gerak geri, lawak jenaka. There is not one day that passed tanpa teringatkan dia.